Lonely...

Man do I miss my husband. It stinks having someone you care so much about gone so much of the time. This was the part I hated when we were dating. You know the whole sleeping alone, and saying goodbye, and constantly worrying wondering if they're going to be okay when they come home. If they even come home. Steve is working at Wal-Mart at this stupid remodeling project. He is gone all night from 8:45 to 6 or sometimes even 7 in the morning. Which is when I am getting ready for work. Yep, the life of luxory. So I see him maybe a total of 3 hours a day? When he gets home he goes to sleep and I leave for work. When I get home at 5, he is either just getting up or he is already awake. So yep, then he gets ready for work at about 7ish or so. I am definitely suffering. I miss HIM! I miss the way he says my name or looks at me in the morning. I miss those kisses goodnight. I miss the spooning before we go to sleep. I miss hanging out with him during the day. I miss his jokes, his smile, the way we used to just BE. I must be really hormonal or something because I think this really sucks. Alas, this job isn't permanant. Just temporary until the remodeling is finished. Which is supposed to happen in August. But just you wait, He already has another job lined up. He starts on July 25 or something like that. He will be working crazy hours, really tired all the time, and be doing what he needs to do. He will be working something like 70 hours a week between the two jobs. I don't even know what to do with that kind of working hours. I guess I would just work. I am proud of him though, don't get me wrong. He is doing what our family needs right now to make sure that we will be okay. Yes, it is hard, and yes we both absolutely hate it. But we should make the best out of our crappy situations so that when the good ones come along, we will appreciate them much more. I love you Steve, never forget that.